October – the month of not-knowing

Ghostbridge Golden Gate Bridge in the fog
Ghost Bridge. (Thanks to Geralin Thomas @metrozing for this photo of the Golden Gate Bridge in the fog.)

Usually I have a clear idea of where I’m going and what I want to achieve when I get there. I’m like an airline pilot, never missing the runway. Really, I’m famous for it. And yet….

Last month I spent a week with three of the finest accountability partners any business owner could wish for. We worked diligently. We talked things through. We wrote. We walked. We shared information. We dreamed. (And we watched the Emmy Awards and ate popcorn.) And at the end of the week? Well, I had a plan, yes. But I didn’t love it.

I really wanted to get my plan “in place” so that I could confidently help other business owners make their plans for the coming year. And I can still do that. It’s just that I can do it with more integrity when I state: my plan may look good, but I’m not done with it. I’m not satisfied.

It’s easy for anyone to make a plan that seems reasonable, that other people approve of, that makes sense, that’s safe. But that doesn’t mean it’s a good plan for you. Or me.

Often I remind my clients, you can’t make a flower grow faster by pulling on it. Right? So I’m not yanking or forcing this plan to hurry up and emerge. I’m committed to waiting for something new to¬† come into focus, however long it takes.

To this end, with the help of my current coach, the really wonderful and extremely gifted Rachel W. Cole, I am declaring October “the month of not knowing.” I will wait for the next big steps to emerge, to reveal themselves. I will not tug at the flower to make it grow. I am lying on my office carpet until I notice something that is so interesting, so compelling, I’d rather pursue it than stay relaxing on my back, looking at the ceiling.

Sometimes the next right step takes its time emerging from the fog of daily commitments and dimly felt desires. When that happens, it’s important to give the flower as much time as it needs to grow and show what it wants to be. Don’t rush it. Wait for the fog to burn away. Wait for the flower to grow.

Sometimes what we need is a month of not-knowing.



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